心動

好久沒有這種心動的感覺 一看見對方，嘴就自然的往上翹並笑了起來 ...

還蠻好的嘛 ~

Inglourious Basterds!

Inglourious Basterds has a very interesting story twist.. Awesome! I love Quentin Tarantino~

For those who hasn't watch it, please do so. If not you would regret.

However, there are people fall asleep half-way (which I don't understand why, because the story line is somewhat quite interesting)

Annoyed

I really don't know why recently I get annoyed by this particular person (name 'Z' in this post) easily.

It used to be ok and neutral all these years since I know Z. Recently Z really annoyed me. I really don't know where to start or how to put it.

We know each other for quite a long time, and we always hang out or go for some outings. I don't know whether it's my problem or my language problem or it's Z's problem.

Always argue on stupid things and most of the time I don't even understand what got us there. I hate arguments, so I cut short my sentences to avoid unnecessary misunderstandings.

Ok, cutting short sentences is a problem. Z told me, perhaps my sentences are short, therefore it is unclear and created more misunderstandings.

I'm really tired and very pressured every time when I have to text Z. I realize (maybe I'm wrong) that Z has a habit of using sms rather than calling up.

I really don't know what to say or how to even phrase my situation here on a blog. Because I don't even know where to start!

I can't let it out on Z because it won't go anywhere. Z would think that it's my problem irregardless of the situation is. Z said, most of the time ppl don't agree with what I think because I'm logic and ppl are not.

Hmm..

Now, I'm just ARRGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! but I got no where to let it out, and it's really tiring. This endless routine conversation.

FUCK!

Officially

While I'm writing this, it's still a minute to become officially 26.

Now, I'm officially 26 years old.

Phew-wit.. wow.. time flies like crazy.

I would like to thank my parents, for them who brought me here in the world, taught me well, give me everything they could.

and... gave me a room where most of my friends envy of. ;)

Happy Birthday, Christina!

:)

Who Am I

Interesting facts. You tell me how true this is of me. : )

YOU ARE STRIVING TO BE IN CONTROL
You are a leader: You approach everything as though you were born to be in charge. Confident, assertive, and decisive, you know what you want and you go after it. You also look out for family, friends, and community—you feel you know what's best for them—and have no fear of confronting anyone who challenges your ideas. Taking the driver's seat, you also generously donate time and energy to people and neighborhood projects.

What to watch out for: When you feel threatened, or others refuse to go along with your agenda, you can become confrontational and domineering, sometimes to the point of being dictatorial. Practice letting someone else take charge on occasion. Also try meditation; it can help you be-come more aware of your controlling impulses and ease the anxiety that may be provoking them.

Looking ahead: You discover your purpose when you take control of your environment. For you, finding a decision-making role is key. That could mean anything from producing a play to spearheading a global campaign for something you care about. In work, you're suited for leadership positions in education, government, industry, finance, religious institutions, or politics. But you can find satisfaction anytime you're given the autonomy to do things your own way.

YOUR SCORES
Many people have two or three strong striving styles, and they can all be important in leading you to the person you are meant to be. If you have a few "highest" scores, read each matching description, and see what rings most true.

Striving to help: 13
Striving to be recognized: 18
Striving to be creative: 12
Striving to be spontaneous: 16
Striving to be knowledgeable: 15
Striving to be secure: 14
Striving to be in control: 18

STRIVING TO HELP
You scored: 13
You are a nurturer: You are caring and supportive in your personal relationships as well as in your job. Unselfish and altruistic by nature, you often anticipate the needs of those around you before they are aware of them. If there is one thing that brings you satisfaction, it's tending to others.

What to watch out for: When you're doing things for people only to feel valued, you can become resentful. And if you sense that your help is not appreciated, you may end up playing the martyr. So before giving your time to everyone else, make sure to take care of yourself (physically, emotionally, and spiritually). And practice waiting until someone asks for help: While you may be able to perceive what a person needs, that doesn't mean she wants you to attend to it.

Looking ahead: It's important for you to be genuinely of service in acknowledged ways. Whether you foster a child, care for an elderly aunt, rescue animals, or support a rock star's career as her personal assistant, look for opportunities where you can help other people or bigger causes. Volunteer work has your name written on it, as do many careers: nursing, teaching, customer service, healing, social work. Don't feel pressured to run the company or lead the project; you may be even more effective as someone's right hand. And you'll likely find working with other people more meaningful than flying solo.
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STRIVING TO BE RECOGNIZED
You scored: 18
You are an achiever: Ambitious, competitive, and hardworking: That's you. With a clear image of who you are, you work tirelessly to make sure your accomplishments are recognized. Your drive for success extends to your family, and you invest a lot of energy in helping them live up to your expectations. Thanks to your knack for diplomacy and abundant charisma, you often inspire others.

What to watch out for: You are prone to becoming a workaholic, slaving away toward success while neglecting your personal life. Because you're driven to gain approval, you can find yourself performing for others like an actor; if you become overly concerned with your image, you end up feeling superficial. To keep your ambition under control, get involved in group activities that require cooperation. Also practice listening to those around you and think about sharing the spotlight from time to time.

Looking ahead: Any career that allows you to scale the ranks and gain recognition, status, even material rewards, lights you up. Actress, entrepreneur, salesperson, politician—you get the picture. And consider balancing your professional challenges with personal ones: Run a 10K, train for a triathlon, compete in a tennis tournament, bike from one end of your state to the other; or join a debate team, play in a poker circle, enter your purebred spaniel in a dog show. Whenever you can win at something, you're happy.
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STRIVING TO BE CREATIVE
You scored: 12
You are an artist: You came out of the womb with a paintbrush in your hand. Or maybe it was a flute or a castanet or a fountain pen to go with your poet's imagination. The point is, you're an original, and you know it. Even if you don't have a singular gift, you're drawn to the arts—anything creative, for that matter—and you have a unique way of looking at the world. Your need for depth and authenticity in relationships can lead to both great joy and profound sorrow, depending on whether others reciprocate. You don't care so much about adapting to group or societal expectations; your independence and sharp intuition propel you on your own path.

What to watch out for: When fear of conformity overrides your creativity, you can assume the role of "outsider" or "orphan" and end up feeling alienated. You may even go so far as refusing to vote or pay taxes. This lone-wolf stance might be a defense against feeling vulnerable. Try to be aware that blaming others for your banishment, or pushing away those who want to get close, only makes things worse. Also, dramatizing your emotions can interfere with your creativity.

Looking ahead: As long as you genuinely express yourself, you feel like the person you were meant to be. How you do it is irrelevant. A chef or architect can be as much of an artist as a painter or sculptor. Many advertising and public relations executives are also highly imaginative. Beyond work, there are opportunities everywhere you look to coax out your inner artist: Design your own jewelry line, create an innovative blog, dream up a comic strip. Relationships are another avenue for self-expression.
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STRIVING TO BE SPONTANEOUS
You scored: 16
You are an adventurer: Action-oriented, curious, outgoing, and often technically gifted, you live for new experiences. You are drawn to risk-taking and aren't afraid to fail. Generally restless, you tend to job-hop or choose a field that offers constant novelty. If you had to name your favorite place, it might be the center of attention—you're a born entertainer, and can easily adapt to any audience. While you collect many acquaintances, you're less likely to develop deep, committed relationships.

What to watch out for: When you can't satisfy your thirst for variety and excitement, you may see yourself as trapped, which can lead to impulsive and self-destructive behavior—drinking, drugs, breaking off relationships, ditching financial responsibilities. Try to find value in some traditions; if you learn to appreciate repetitive experiences, you won't always feel the urge to bust free. And when a new opportunity thrills you, keep in mind that just because it sounds exciting, that doesn't mean it's good for you.

Looking ahead: Life will have meaning for you as long as you feel stimulated. That might mean chasing twisters, exploring the polar ice caps, getting a degree in dance therapy, or becoming an astronaut. It might also mean reading new books, attending workshops, or letting yourself get swept up in an intoxicating romance. As a risk-lover with a lot of energy, you're a natural entrepreneur. You'll be happiest if you change jobs every so often and travel extensively. Movement is what keeps you going.
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STRIVING TO BE KNOWLEDGEABLE
You scored: 15
You are an intellectual: As a leader, you're often ahead of your time. As an employee, you try to surpass the competence level of peers, even managers. Incisive and curious, you're driven to deeply understand how things work. But that's things, not people. Oh, your family and friends are important; it's just that you don't need to spend hours engaging with them. Social validation isn't your goal—you're secure enough in your cerebral pursuits.

What to watch out for: When you can't find a way to be the expert, you may withdraw or simply withhold information, which can make you seem smug or arrogant. If you feel yourself retreating into your own world, seek a friend's help to pull you back. Also balance your cerebral tendencies through physical activities like jogging, hiking, or dance.

Looking ahead: You discover who you are meant to be through accumulating insight and knowledge. So follow your curiosity. Are you drawn to learning Mandarin? Join-ing a philosophy society? Studying and practicing Buddhist meditation? Delving into the complexities of computer programming? Writing a historical book? Pursuits that place you near the leading edge of technology, science, psychology, academia, or business are good bets. But any situation that allows you to work independently with freedom to investigate and innovate will fuel your drive.
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STRIVING TO BE SECURE
You scored: 14
You are a stabilizer: You are the rock in a storm, the one others lean on. Loyal and com-mitted in your relationships, you maintain a support system of like-minded people whom you look out for. (So what if you do it behind the scenes and don't get credit?) You're careful with money, cherish the familiar, and defend the traditions you care about.

What to watch out for: Rapidly changing environments (like a shaky economy) are very hard for you. As a result of such instability, you can spiral into a state where everything seems catastrophic and you're sure life will only get worse. You can also become overcontrolling, rejecting any suggestion that doesn't conform to your idea of the way things should be. To avoid being too rigid, each month try changing one habit. Exper-iment with clothes, drive a different way to work, initiate conversations about subjects you wouldn't normally discuss. And when the opportunity arises to do something new, avoid the impulse to immediately say no—this may be nerve-racking, but the more you practice, the less anxious you'll feel.

Looking ahead: You find meaning in pursuing safety and certainty. Focusing on family can give you great satisfaction. Also consider planting a vegetable garden, hosting class reunions, volunteering as a lifeguard, teaching at your church or temple. In the work arena, look for positions where you're responsible for others, and for making sure everyone is following the rules. You work well in any environment that is stable and consistent. Careers in government, finance, the military, law enforcement, and product manufacturing are strong options for you.
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STRIVING TO BE IN CONTROL
You scored: 18
You are a leader: You approach everything as though you were born to be in charge. Confident, assertive, and decisive, you know what you want and you go after it. You also look out for family, friends, and community—you feel you know what's best for them—and have no fear of confronting anyone who challenges your ideas. Taking the driver's seat, you also generously donate time and energy to people and neighborhood projects.

What to watch out for: When you feel threatened, or others refuse to go along with your agenda, you can become confrontational and domineering, sometimes to the point of being dictatorial. Practice letting someone else take charge on occasion. Also try meditation; it can help you be-come more aware of your controlling impulses and ease the anxiety that may be provoking them.

Looking ahead: You discover your purpose when you take control of your environment. For you, finding a decision-making role is key. That could mean anything from producing a play to spearheading a global campaign for something you care about. In work, you're suited for leadership positions in education, government, industry, finance, religious institutions, or politics. But you can find satisfaction anytime you're given the autonomy to do things your own way.

Was..

There was a date that used to matter to me a lot, even after some events happen, I still remember the date.

Till this year..

I didn't even remember it at all, not even noticing that it has passed till yesterday. Bump into the info by accident through facebook.

Then.. "DING". It hit me.

I was amazed that I did not remember bout it because I am always a person that once I saved it in my hard drive, it would hardly be forgotten. This year is different.

I believe, this marks that I have truly left that behind me and moving forward to something new in life.

So, my friend, there would be one day, you would be me as well.

Forget, Forgive, Forgotten.

冷戰 - 小說

冷戰

Created 10/06/2009 - 18:55

她以為他會載她到會場，沒想到他載她來到地鐵站，然後對她說：“妳自己去。”她聽了，滿腹的委屈，如果早知道他不載她到會場，她一早就自己駕車到地鐵站，免得回來時，還要轉巴士才回到家。

她氣鼓鼓地下車，內心一直懊惱他的不夠體貼，婚前他都不是這樣的。她記得從前開會，不管多麼不方便，他都會送她到會場，從來不必她多言，可是，今天他卻……

來到地鐵站，人潮洶湧，在這流感肆虐的高風險期，許多人都帶著口罩，她匆忙地把口罩戴上，覺得很不舒服。地鐵內擠得像沙丁魚，她更氣他了。

來到會場，她選了個位子坐下，隨手翻著研討會的資料，心想如果他打電話來，她就原諒他。 她不喜歡憋著一肚子的氣。她故意把手機放在桌上，擔心聽不到電話的響聲。可是，電話一直不響。她看看腕表，還未到9點，或許，他還在路上吧。到了公司，他就會給她來電了。她耐著性子等，可是，10點了，研討會開始了，他還沒來電。或許，他知道研討會開始了，所以沒打來吧。內心煩躁，她無法專註於研討會的內容，常有意無意地瞄瞄手機，看看他是否來電。時間一分一秒地過，她接到幾封短訊，但都不是他的。

會後，她一個人漫無目的到商場溜達，嘗試把對他的在乎撇下。逛完後，她提著一大袋的東西，走到地鐵站，搭上回家的列車。列車上一樣擠滿人，她心裡不禁又氣惱起他來。地鐵到站，天空飄著細雨，她原想乘計程車的，偏偏又沒有車，她只好冒雨走到繁忙的大路上，往巴士站走去。巴士站烏煙瘴氣，一陣陣的汗臭味迎風飄來，她趕緊戴上口罩。

巴士開行了，她坐在車內，巴士的冷氣或是壞了，她流起了汗來。這時，她不禁恨起他來，都是他，讓她那麼狼狽！她更恨的是，他始終沒給她來電，問問她是否回到家了。她決定不和他說話，一定要他道歉！

也許是受了涼，回到家，她感到有點不舒服。那晚，偏偏他又比平日遲回，回到家，也不問問她，沒事一般的吃飯看報紙。她更是氣得快要爆炸了。她悶悶的上床，翻來復去卻無法入眠，他始終都沒進來和她說說話，其實，只要他道歉，她就會原諒他，可是，他就是沒道歉！

第二天，她醒來，自己吃了早點，卻故意不準備他的，他倒是沒事般自己吃了幾片餅乾，喝了一杯奶就開始工作。她故意在他的面前出現，等他和她道歉，可是，他就是無動於衷。而她，更是不願對他開口。

一天，兩天，三天……已經一星期了，孩子也察覺了家中不尋常的氣氛，開始問她，她氣他的牛脾氣，卻又無法向孩子解釋，唯有報以苦笑。

開始時，她對兩個人同居一屋，共睡一床，卻無言以對的情況很不習慣，漸漸地，她卻覺得其實也沒甚麼不好，他不再理她，她也無需時時刻刻想著給他報告一天的瑣事，樂得自在，時間仿佛多了，她開始上網和人聊天，聊天的對象是誰其實沒關係，反正都是虛擬的。

她中學就和他在一起，生活的中心就是他。如今，通過網上和其他人的交流，她仿佛再度回到年輕時，再度享受著別人對她的愛戀，雖然她知道這一切都將是一場夢，但是，有甚麼關係呢？總比癡癡地等著一頭牛給她道歉還實在吧。

他始終是忍不住了，終於在一個晚上，用力地抱著她，在她耳邊和她說對不起，她以為她會高興，但，出乎意料，她沒一點喜悅，只是覺得不想影響孩子，就接受了他，但心裏，想著的卻是網上的情人……

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很多時候冷戰是不必要的，我還蠻喜歡這故事的結局。有些事情，人物或東西當你錯過了就是無法挽回

Timing is always the key.